This morning I want to stand back and see what we have touched on this year, and obviously, from the flow of my fingers there will be a good read, one can hope.
Healing Evolution – me – loves jumping from one subject to the next. I know it frustrates some folks out there. However, we cater for a broader audience inclusive the website readers, and there at times requests that come through from someone to have assistance with, let’s call it a “subject”.
The courage to heal was our very first – the reason I started with that, was the simple fact that it touched the core of my being. The ability to openly speak about the different types of abuse we experience every day. Sometimes not even aware that the sickening feeling within us, is the soul crying from the experience.
We have walked with some people asking about phobias and anxiety disorders, there are still many to touch on, however we will sit here till kingdom come if we only speak about phobias and anxiety disorders every day. When I started the journey, I was shocked beyond my foundations reading and studying all the different phobias that people could possibly have. Some of you I have spoken to directly, others have read the needed in Healing evolution.
Other requests came in, asking about psychological, let’s say “constraints”, thus Healing Evolution once again mastered the book-knowledge needed to guide and speak openly.
Some days the need was great in sharing very personal information with you. Do not be shocked that there are those not believing the life I have lived. Mostly called an attention seeking, drama queen. I OWN IT 😊, pardon me while I shift my crown back into place…
I have walked the road of transformation, guidance found in books I have read, and used in my own life. Maybe it helped you in some way, or maybe you found the information boring and irrelevance.
We tried to show you the journey of from pain into power, we shared the anatomy of the spirit. We addressed and handed information from life coaches, spiritual coaches, guidance coaches… Sharing practicalities of the personality – not the astrological – but who and what you are, from my OWN 100 page feedback report. And no, not done on the internet darlings, but from a person that have studied human behaviour and based on extensive tests.
Healing evolution has journeyed with you on the chakras, the healing aspects of them, the importance and the guidance and challenges that comes with your special energetical discs in your body.
We have shared our own pain, our own disbelief in society, the fundamental of self-struggling to conceptualize the behaviour of others, and we touched that elephant more than once.
Sometimes we needed to be silent, still here, but “silent”. Some days my own writing felt like whiff-waff. Other times I would re-read what I wrote and delete the entire three pages, as it “sounded” and felt of no importance.
There had been days that I stared at the PC, wondering what to say. Waking first thing in the morning with the brilliance of a subject, only to find myself with an empty head two hours later.
For some posts, misunderstood I was crucified for, others the message was completely lost. More than once I found myself at the “books” again to see how and where I can improve on my own personal way of speaking. I found that my unique style of bringing some form of humour, eclectic, or “weirdo” writer, is more me. Even though the assessor of my assignments asks the same thing over and over again – be more “professional”.
That is where I stand still today. Professional…. Cold, clinical, un-caring, unapproachable… The most hits I get is when I allow my personality to shine through. The most interactions I get is when I allow my fingers to just tell the story I have in my head, with or without the grammatically correct or without an accidental typing error…. Just me, being me… being human, being flawed…
Accepting that I am perfect in all my beautiful imperfections that seems to irritate people.
Professional – I can be professional, I can be distant, speaking from a place of emotional detachment – oh and erm, just by the way, I have had years of pretending that I could not be touched by the suffering of another human being in a corporate environment, taking orders of discipline handed out to people that were already over worked, or instructed prior to a hearing to “get rid of the person”.
It saddened my heart when I heard the stories – when you see her coming, you are guaranteed to be dismissed. Addition to that, told after many cases that the pentagram around my neck created fear in the hearts of those not understanding what it stands for.
I have speculated for hours, is that what is meant by being professional. Where have we lost the ability to feel. How have we lost it? Why should we pretend to be anything other than human and flawed? What is there to be lost within brutal, honesty? Yourself?
If you had been paying attention in the group, I have one thing that really makes my toes curl, and not in a good way… lying.
When it was said by my LINE MANAGER – that I hand out sweeties to children and juice to the grown up on a weekend, lying straight faced… I felt the need to actually do just that. I did not lie, but it felt wrong, it made my skin crawl… I was told afterwards – her job is to “make me look good”, because of all the stories that had been flying around…
Professional – it means skilled, expert, qualified, specialized…. No where does it say, detached, un approachable… forgetting that you are human, forgetting that the person you dealing with is also just human.
Am I skilled, qualified, a specialist in the chosen field? Yes, I am. I am a professional, that jumps like a crazy person between subjects of interest, keeping you laughing, and challenging the way you think.
Blessings from a humble – professional 😊
